Going back to church after a long gap-

by Livin’ in the trees
(Colorado)

My fears come being afraid of the outcomes. Having used microdosing in the past, I know mushrooms can really bring things to the surface and or make problems larger so we can really see, what we know deep down to be true, but may not allow ourselves to feel or act on. Truth serum. Light.
Also my husband and I are going through a lot right now. This is something that we cannot do to together for a few reasons, but I’m afraid that doing this on my end alone would cause a bigger gap between us. That is not my goal. Yet I have always called mushrooms my religion, this is part of my journey that I can not ignore.
I also, shamefully, have not heeded the messages I’ve received from the medicine in the past- I feel ashamed to go back.